Last night, my parents had a fight again. So when my mom brought us out for dinner, she didn't ask my dad to come along. I thought it was great my dad didn't tag along, since if he was in a bad mood, dinner would have been hell.

So, after dinner, me, my mom and my bro had a talk at the playground area near my place.
Half way through the talk, i left my bro with my mom to chat, i drifted all the way to the bridge in the playground and i just lay there motionless, staring at the damn, 'starless' sky, all i saw was some lizard (OH MAI GAWD) and the full moon.

although it was like, totally boring without anyone with me on that bridge, i just lay there staring at the moon. It was beautiful, but it lacked something. Than i imagined myself at the pasiris Park(somewhere in Singapore mind you), the beach was cool, the waves soothing and the air relaxing... All of a sudden, i started thinking about my family, about my friends who stuck by me and my new friends in the new secondary school.... I started to think really really really deeply, and it scares me somehow. I thought about my attitude towards them, and i thought about what i had said to them, it was like i was literally in their shoes!

I realized why they were like this, i suddenly felt what they would have felt, i thought what they had thought and i understood a lot of things that night. I understood what my parents felt, but i didn't want to, i understood how Galvin felt when i kicked him out, but i didn't want to, because it hurts and i want all of it to stop. It's because of my selfishness that i did not want to understand, but i did and i didn't do anything about.

I felt horrible after that night. But i also realized that my friends and family are all i need, that i didn't need to hide everything to myself, because i had my friends with me.

I really thank my mom for being so understanding, my grandmother for being so kind and loving, my closest friends(YiPing, Fion and a few others) for being there for me, and my classmates (new school and old school, you guys are the best!) and of course my family. I really thank you all.

And... Silav or Silas, you don't need to hide anymore, i know who you are LOL

Thx for reading this lengthy journal ^^
(We won da spelling bee today! HAIL 1/4 FOR OUR SPELLING GREATNESS!!!)